Girlfriend broke up with me what do i do?

My girlfriend broke up with me after 2 years. Weve been having drunk arguments which ive said and done some mean things. Shes given me chance after chance to work on these things but i never fully took the time to step bak and see what exactly i was doing to contribute to this problem. She loved me so much, and i was sometimes an idiot. She ended things a week ago saying she just couldnt do it any more. Her hearts not it it any longer. Well the next day she called me and wanted to see me and said she missed me. I spent night and cuddled her all night. Then again a few days later she wanted to spend night w me. Then on satuday she went out and didnt bother calling or texting. I felt she gave me false hope and told her how i felt. So now, she again has told me that she cant keep doing this and she loves me but doenst feel in love with me, she wishes she felt differnet. I pleaded with her to give us another shot, that i really see where the problem stems from. But she says its too little too late. So now, m sitting here kicking myself for being blind. what do i do? I want to be with her. And i know she still loves me.